Friday, September 19, 2008

It is intriguing that I can feel perfectly fine one moment, and flare up the next moment to even the people tht are closest to me. I have to keep a closer check on my emotions.

Haiz, and the life of someone who's main purpose is entertainment. He is, after all, only entertainment. Liked, of course, by people generally, but he is still just someone that provides the entertainment.

That's all.

And perhaps he should be content with what he has and the joy he brings to others, but really, the reward is shortlived. Of course, entertainers are happy that he brings joy and happiness to people by entertaining them, but sometimes, the question of "is it worth it?" floats in his mind.

Then again, he has nothing else to offer (other than entertainment, which is quite a common skill and can be fulfill by almost anyone), which then adds to the emptyness he already feels, which then makes him emo, and then removes even his entertainer's spirit. And this makes him feel more emo and etc etc etc.

It's a vicious cycle. I seriously think the role of an entertainer is inherently flawed.

PS: Entertainers are not supposed to be trapped by the never ending workload of ISP. It's not good for his physical and mental health. Especially mental health.

PSS: Note to himself: never drink tea + eat choc + be stressed. Does not work out.

Fishballs; 12:06 AM